Aaaaand breathe out

For everyone who thought this would never happen.

Thank God for the next four years.

Give me Equilibrium

It's so hard to find a balance between social life and academic life. I've tried mixing the two by studying with friends- but that tends to lean a little to one side, which did not help my econ exam grade. Aiesec is so great because it opens the door for so many opportunities and not to mention a million awesome people to meet and talk to. But the only problem is that the urgency to get good grades fades with your loneliness. Its so hard to find motivation when all you want to do is hang out with all the lovely people you know. If anyone knows how to find that balance, you should let me know.

It's not you, it's me

I never considered friendships as fickle things.....and I still don't. But I believe high school friendships can't be anything but fickle, considering for the most part the only thing you all have in common is that the social hierarchy of your school decided you would all be in the same social group and so you are kind of forced to be friends. Sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn't. High school friendships that can last all through college without falling apart through exposing their illegitimacy are stronger than you could imagine, and also few and far between.

I guess the biggest shocker is realizing after so many years that the friendship you once had with someone was completely based on superficiality. What makes it worse is when you realize that all these years when you thought you were thinking clearly and logically you missed this crucial fault over and over again. Why do some friendships turn into obligations? You know you are no good for each other but yet you stay friends. Why? Because it's been that way for so long? Because you'd feel like a douche saying it's not working anymore?

Things are getting pretty exciting

I missed all the AIESEC activities this weekend, but first coach group is less than 2 days away, waking my ass up at 5am to bike in the freezing cold is over, I finally learned time management, and I'm getting $12/hr to do what I would pay someone to let me do.


All in all... Life is good.

The Mysteries of Life...

Impossible to believe in until you realize them. And even then, they could be right in front of you waiting to be seen but still invisible to the eye that refuses to acknowledge them.

We're told they come in a wave like an epiphany. But what we're not told is that they are not only difficult to see, but difficult to hold on to. You think you've got it figured out but the truth is you can look away for a moment and find yourself as ignorant as ever.

You know when...

...you first meet someone and think, "God this person looks dumber than a stump". And then you actually talk to them and you find out that they are actually one of the coolest, most informed people you have ever met?


I love those times.

Reinvention or Revolution?

I'm always reevaluating my life and everything in it. Changing what needs some shaking up, keeping some things constant, and always on the look out for new things. I guess this need to revamp is inborn for the most part. Lord knows if we just stayed constant with everything and felt no need for change we would still be in the stone age. Really it's pretty healthy, but at the same time I find myself questioning things I never used to doubt before; things that I really wish I could still believe in.

But if I'm not getting everything I need out of something, why stay with it?